Please Excuse Me

Please excuse me, but my mind has been foggy, and my thoughts uncompleted. My life has been a roller coaster, and I’m scared, but the same loop that I went around not long ago, I might be going around one more time. The ups and downs I want to relive, call me crazy but I do. If I watch my back more carefully and do things differently, what if things work out how I want them? People worry about me, I suppose they have a reason, but I want to give a second chance and see where my new knowledge takes me. I want to try again, people might say I deserve better but what I want is him. He is a game that I want to play again, a game that I want to win this time; I am a very sore loser. I love when he talks to me, his words always soothe me, and whatever he talks about I want to listen. He is a asshole, but I love it, because he is my asshole.

lock and key

What I missed about you was so much
seeing you again brought it all back
that road I won’t travel again
I know where it will lead
I will stay your friend forever
I want to have so much more
what you gave me is what I wanted
things have changed now
I’m not really sure I can get you back
I doubt it will go back to normal
if you try one more time
to get me back
I might try once more
my heart is staying behind this wall
the key hole is all I’ll be looking out of
if you have the key then use it
if you don’t
I guess I’ll have to wait for someone that does

Is it?

Is it so wrong

That I still wish

Is it so bad

That I still dream

You are my wish

You are my dream

But I can't have you

Which makes me long for more

And after I wanted

And realized

I will never get you

I gave you up

Taking my heart away

Sadly...

You still have most of it

And you don't even realize

That you are my dream

You are my wish